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Darkness

Darkness crept on me

Slowly it consumed me

Day by day it dragged me closer to the darkness

Closer to where the sadness of live is found

The day seems longer

But the light is shaded in black

24-7 of endless darkness

No point to wake up everyday

No point to continue on living

But then you arrived

A flash of light

Blinding the eyes of all

Forcing the dark to creep away

Clearing the road

Showing the future of live

Bringing back hope to live

Bringing a reason to continue on living

And when the light fades

The darkness may creep back

But there will always be a spark of light

A spark of hope

That will always stay

To help you through anything

To make you smile when you are forced to frown

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WAR

What is the point of it?

Why do we kill?

Why do we harm?

Why do we torture?

Isn’t live hard enough?

Should we really add the troubles?

Should we really make people suffer more?

How long should we fight to get peace?

How long does it take to accept one another?

How long does it take for us to cooperate?

How long does it need to open the people’s hearts?

What is it that makes us fight?

What is it that makes us want to be better than others?

Can’t people just be there to complete each other?

Not letting them down

How should we show people what is happening?

How can we make them want to change?

How can we end this war in our beloved world?

Who would be our one leader?

One who can change everyone?

A top role model

A man of peace

A fighter for justice

The answer is no one

Humans have their own minds

Can be put together only by logic

Can be together when someone chooses to change

So, to end this war

The only thing to do is

To change yourselves

my newest poem

LOVE

“Love” is a word

A word with 4 letters

2 vowels and 2 consonants

But inside, it stores limitless possibilities.

It may show fear and sadness

It can show happiness and satisfaction

It can bring desperation and frustration

It can bring peace and salvation

Love makes you smile

Even when you’re in your darkest times

Love makes you get hope back

When all seems to fail

Love makes you cry

When the heart you give gets rejected

Love makes you desperate

When all you do seems so useless

Failure is not a rare show

Pain and frustration is something normal

Depression and sadness is undeniable

Rejection is a part of everyday life

To fall…

Another part of life cycle in love

To rise from the ashes…

Another show of bravery and dedication

And when time comes,

No matter how or when

Love will come to each and everyone

Brightening the days

Opening the eyes of everyone

To bring joy and pleasure

In one way or another

Everyone will be happy

life can't be worse than this

my life post number 3

soo.. this week has been a shithole at home. pure 100% shit..

if i could, i would LOVE to run away from here and stay at school.. better yet, live with my friends.. *ada yg mw menyalonkan diri?*

soo,,,

today ak pulang skolah...

school was fun

but when i got home, i picked up my MOM a.k.a the devil from the mall

then in the car.. *we have only met for 10-20 minutes btw* she started talking about school.. and work.. and study.. and everything i hate... again.

so i told her to just... stop talking about it...

so she stopped..

then i ate some ice cream,, in front of tv.. everything was fine. then i took a refreshing bath.. fresh ^^

then i went downstairs to TRY and make my kimia hw.. then i thought *hell.. mati banget* trus nutup buku

then ngambil laptop untuk ngerjain tugas ingg yg book review itu..

on the 1st second i opened my l-top, she started talking again about work and stuff.. i couldn't take another second, so i just shouted STOP!~!! ga peduli lagi dia mikir gimana lg

but i have no idea on how to make it...

so,,, i have made a part of it,, planning to ask Ms. Natasha Anastasia tomorrow.. so i just opened fb, play, etc...

soo,, the devil was angry *again*

dia bilang ak ga kerja ma skali *!?!>!@#$!%$@*

so i showed her what i did.. 1 halaman review.. then dia bilang "tom,, kamu tuh anak sma 2! kalo bikin sependek itu,, cuma 10-20 kalimat *WTF* itu tuh kerjaan anak sd! blablbala *crap continues*" sooooo,,,, yah gitulah.. kesel benci bt marah tercampur jadi 1 n terbentuk pemikiran kejam di.otak *evil laugh* bwahahahahhaa!!!! tapi kayaknya gabakal dilakuin.... zZz

aduh..

pokoknya males banget lah,, dirumah.. ada yg mw tukeran rumah 1 minggu ga??

puh-leaseee!!!

my opinions on celebrities

umm...

lemme start by saying..

i'm NOT jealous by you celebrities

fine you have big houses

lots and lots and lots of money

a lot of friends

lots of fans

fame!! fortune!! bright future!! looks!!

EVERYTHING a normal human being would want and adore

but sadly,

i am not a normal human being

i know, without being told that you (celebrities) are in pain

none of you can have a calm, private life..

if you (people who read this blog) go to perezhilton.com , you can find lots and i really mean LOTS of names of famous celebrities people know and love. FILLED with gossips, what they do everyday..their relationships..affairs..family problems..drug problems.. or any kind of things they do. even if the pick their nose in public, it would be posted right away.. and people read it!! is that even necessary? isn't there any other better things we can do besides looking at what famous people does? don't we have our own lives to worry about? *confession time* who of you who read this blog have NEVER picked your nose in public? lemme confess.. i HAVE.. but so what? what is the difference between me picking my nose in public and them? we are all humans. 2 eyes 2 hands 1 nose 2 ears 2 legs 5 fingers on each hand and foot. the difference we have is maybe our looks,, our singing voice and our acting talent. but everything can be trained..

i bet that most of those celebrities are tortured with their lives.. happiness can be faked. but if they look deep down, they must be very sad.. nothing they do can be a secret. in 10-15 minutes, everybody in the whole world might know.. isn't that torture?

and now,, let me take.. michael jackson as an example.

a fricking FAMOUS person..

but famous how?

singing? OF COURSE

dancing skill? HELL YEAH

plastic operation? MUCH MORE THAN HIS SINGING AND DANCING

he is known as 'the KING of pop' but most people start knowing him not because of his song and dance, but because of his nose operation. people say he done it 3 times. some say 4. some say even more. but... if we look at it.. does it really matter?

Michael Jackson have touched MILLIONS of lives around the world. from the hungry..starving..desperate kids, adults in africa. in america. isn't that what really matter?

even in his dead bed. even AFTER HIS DEATH. i can still hear people talking, gossiping about his nose operations. it UPSETS me really. not just because i am a huge fan of him myself, but because... from the way i see it, we (non-famous people) gossip and talk about famous people for 1 reason and 1 reason alone. JEALOUSY. we (most of us) are jealous because they have lots of money, great big house,, etc.. and also because they have great lives. most of us are jealous with their lives, then paparazzi-s make gossips,, fake pictures,, blabla to start making their lives miserable...

there is nothing i can say to change people's perspective over this topic.. but.. how would you yourself feel when you are fricking famous and people NEVER stop talking about what you did wrong.. LESS than talking what you did right to try and change the world. and people still claim that they want to make the world a better place. BULLSHIT

well Michael Jackson did want to and try to change the world, change people and most importantly, change himself. he clearly stated and messaged that from his song man in the mirror he also talked and maybe critiziced over how humans in the world never stand together. from his song we are the world and black or white he showed us to LOVE people.. that love is the most important thing of all.. but people still umm... prioritizes his nose job... disgusting!!

and i repeat. i am not jealous with them. i have a better life without big houses, millions and limitless money.. i have love, respect and privacy. and nothing in the world would get those 3 things away from me..

hope this small posting changed the hearts of people who can't stop gossiping about famous people. even a little nudge to the heart is enough

- my opinion over gossip and celebrities - [end]

song i'm loving right now - part 2 -

cascada - everytime we touch (slow version)

i still hear your voice,

whe you sleep next to me

i still feel your touch,

in my dreams

forgive me, my weakness,

but i don't know why

without you it's hard to survive

every time we touch,

i get this feeling,

every time we kiss,

i swear i could fly

can't you feel my heart beat fast

i want this to last

need you by my side

every time we touch

i feel the static

every time we kiss

i reach for the sky

can't you feel my heart beat, so

i can't let you go

your arms are my castle,

your heart is my sky,

they wipe away tears that i cry,

ooo...

the good and the bad times,

we've been through them all,

you make me rise, when i fall

every time we touch,

i get this feeling

every time we kiss,

i swear i could fly

can't you feel my heart beat fast

i want this to last

need you by my side

every time we touch

i feel the static

every time we kiss,

i reach for the sky

can't you feel my heart beat, so

i can't let you go

WANT you by my life

every time we touch,

i get this feeling

every time we kiss,

i swear i could fly

can't you feel my heart beat fast

i want this to last

need you by my side

every time we touch

i feel the static

every time we kiss,

i reach for the sky

can't you feel my heart beat, so

i can't let you go

a WONDERFUL song by cascada

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5roNCOXuKNk

songs i'm LOVING right now.. - part 1 -

hinder - lips of an angel

honey, why are you calling me so late?

it's kinda hard to talk right now

honey, why are you crying, is everything ok?

i gotta whisper 'cause i can't be too loud

[chorus:]

well my girl's in the next room

sometimes i wish she was you

i guess we never really moved on

it's really good to hear your voice saying my name

it sounds so sweet

coming from the lips of an angel

hearing those words-it makes me weak

and i never want to say good bye

but girl you make it hard to be faithful

with the lips of an angel

it's funny that you're calling me tonight

and, yes, i've dreamt of you too

and does he know you're talking to me?

will it start a fight?

no, i don't think she has a clue

[chorus]

it's really good to hear your voice saying my name

it sounds so sweet

coming from the lips of an angel

hearing those words-it makes me weak

and i never wanna say goodbye

but, girl, you make it hard to be faithful

with the lips of an angel

(and i never wanna say goodbye)

but, girl, you make it hard to be faithful

with the lips of an angel

honey,, why are you calling me so late?

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